I felt fear drowning my senses, everything froze, I couldn't move a finger,....Yet I... I prayed for calm, wisdom and strength and concentrated on improving my mental state so that I could win this moment. I felt my energy draining away, my courage dying, but I didn't want to end like this, I needed to do something for myself, I needed to find myself and recognize myself. Therefore, with great difficulty, I got up, took a deep breath and decided to try one more time. Very scared, but determined to give myself one more chance, I forced myself to step outside.