read this expert from the bridge I got to have my mouth open like a fish scooping and bugs not play in the band give him my music why didn't they just asked me to cut out my heart I sat there staring on my father as though he had just turned into an alien because for me he had I didn't know what in the world I was going to do I could no more renounce my music than I could give up breathing which term best describes how the narrator feels in this excerpt