Answer:
“The painter's face curdled with scorn "You think I'm proud of this daub?" he said. "You think this is my idea of what life looks like?"
"What's your idea of what life looks like?" said the orderly.
The painter gestured at a foul drop cloth. "There's a good picture of it," he said. "Frame that, and you'll have a picture a d*** sight more honest than this one.”
Step-by-step explanation:
The painter does not view life as enjoyable in any way. He views it to be as bad as a foul cloth. He knows that there is so much chaos, and that he is living only to die. This leads him to taking his own life, rather then letting the government take it from him; he doesn't view life as a "worth it" affair