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well i may not know how to deliver my exact feelings to you but ill try
Ive always been afriad of messing up my life and walking in the same steps of my siblings and ending up living the life im trying to run from and not knowing if ill ever recover from this and get my life together but geuss what its actaully not that hard if you consider fixing it and you dont really have to change that much about yourself but know whats wrong in what youre doing im really trying to study and do beneficial activities but Ifeel so busy and stressed i cant breathe sometimes i try reading books i suggest you to read Atomic Habits by James Clear and Make Your Bed by William H. McRaven (US Navy Retired) these books will make you learn more about life and peoples experiences