Mom, I just want to say through the years of transitioning from a kid into a young adult. I wish you were here beside me. Did you know that I did what you told me? The moments you laid at my bedside telling me “you can be whatever you want. Just promise me you’ll stand by what makes you happy” I’m going to college now. I passed all my classes with A’s and B’s. Im gonna go into a science career path. Something about it just brings me joy. Many people have told me you’ll never be able to do it, or why science why not a teacher or something. Everyone wants to be a basic career a teacher, nurse, lawyer. I mean nothings wrong with it but are they truly happy doing what they do. Your words even though they weren’t deep. They struck me in a way where I see no point doing anything unless it brings me joy. When I’m happy I think of you and everything we did together. I miss you, I miss everything we did together. I miss waking up and helping you cook breakfast, I miss you reading me books at night. I was only just a kid when you passed, it’s been 13 years now, I can’t believe I’m gonna be 20 in a couple months. I wish you were here to spend my day with me. The way you made my birthdays mean the most to me. With balloons, cake, and party favors, you made the day all about me. You had everyone show up to celebrate my birthday with me. Since you’ve been gone, I just don’t celebrate them because it’ll never amount to the times we had on them. And whenever I think about it, it just brings me down. I wish you were still alive to see me today. I wonder if I’ll make you proud .