Growing up is devastating. Some people grow up too fast, and some don't ever grow up. To grow up you leave the life you once knew to be a different person, in other words part of you is dying to make room for the adult that you need to survive in this world. The 'adult' doesn't mean that you are actually an adult, but the decisions of an adult or the mindset that you need to survive that isn't the lightheartedness of the child that ran around without a care in the demon-filled world.