Hi there..i just need to vent i feel so awful. Me and OH really struggled to get our almost 3 year old to sleep tonight. He has been quite defiant all day but just would not go to sleep for OH so i went up & sat for ages.
He was quite settled but then became v difficult & started kicking me & got my bump. I just mindlessly retaliated and smacked him on the bottom.. He really cried, i cant believe it.. Didnt help at all. Normally bedtime is all warm & cuddly & he lays down and goes to sleep while one of us sits there for 5 mins, but occasionally hes like this.
I know im feeling really hormonal but hate myself for this and he is going through a phase of hitting then i do this!!! How do i expect him to learn when i go and do exactly what we teach him is wrong? I just feel so awful like the worst mother in the world.... It scares me very occasionally just how angry i can feel. Can anyone offer any help or advice? Feel so ashamed :(