This question is about "1984" by George Orwell
Answer:
He finds and finds the death of his sister and mother attractive, but does not find it attractive that he likes it.
Step-by-step explanation:
Winston is a very pessimistic character, although rebellious and revolutionary, he has a certain fascination for death, as something that will catch everyone and that must be violent and suffering, often that thought invades him around himself.
One night he dreams about the death of his sister and his mother, he feels that this is very attractive and in a way comforts him, because it makes him feel something and realize that he is alive and that he is a human being capable of feeling. The problem is that what he feels is guilt and remorse for finding the death of his mother and sister attractive and good.